“Looks like we have to do a C-section” was the scariest moment in my entire life. Like most pregnant mothers, it is not something we plan for our first pregnancy. We want to be those mighty mothers that push ours out. Tears poured from my eyes. My husband knew that was my biggest fear when it came to delivering our son. I have had friends and family members that have gone through it and of course they did it like champs. I was terrified but all I could think of was ‘This is what is best for me and the baby’. That was the only thing that mattered. He was sunny side up and even with the nurses rotating me every hour, he would not budge.
Even though I couldn’t feel from breast down (that was the scariest part) with an oxygen mask on my face, hearing my amazing doctor say “Ok mom ready to meet your baby?” and hearing our son belt out his scream is something that I will never forget. Seeing the look on my husband face while he held my hand coaching me to breath while peeking over the sheet to see the first glimpse of his baby boy showed me a whole new meaning to the miracle of life. It showed me what it means to be the best person you can be for this little person you both created.
For those who think getting a C-section is the “easy way” out, it’s not. We do not get to hold our baby right away. They take him/her out and the nurses do what they need to do, while you are left on the table getting sewn up. You can’t feel anything from the breast down. Let me tell you, that is the scariest feeling in the world. You come out of surgery with the most intense chills you will ever have in your life . We are left with gaps of memory from the procedure and the recovery. If you are lucky enough, your spouse will take a ton of photos. I barely remember being in recovery with my son. You are not allowed to get up from your bed for 24 hours. We have scars, some are large, some are small, and a little pudge that will always be there. We still experience pain and soreness, just in different areas. I personally still have numbness around my incision scar and it still hurts to wear jeans with buttons. I had my son 7 month ago. To those who say that it’s not a natural birth, I do not agree. You still created a life inside your body and you still brought your little one into this world.